92's warp up!

93 is right behind the door! I love to feel festive but … I can’t… Everything gets on my nerves…I can’t get myself all excited for the new year! It’s so sad! Last year I got myself to believe that anything is possible in the year 92 but every passing day I proved to myself more and more that everything is not possible! The only things that are possible are the things that are obvious! The only things that were possible for me were good grades and record making English scores! Surprise! Like those are things that need belief to happen! In the year that passed once again I was alone the only difference was that I was too busy to think about it and eventually I guess every romantic bone that existed in me deteriorated! For the third year in a row I fooled myself with the fantasy of studying abroad but this year it wasn’t just a dream! It was a fight and I’m still fighting it! You may not believe it but I’m still reporting TOEFL scores! I’m still crying in DHL way! The fight has been over for everybody I know but I’m still fighting like the fight has just started! Unlike all the other years of my life I didn’t have a public blog this year! I thought by now I’ll be festive enough to start writing publically but recently I realized how little public cares for me and now I see no point in writing publicly! My loyal blog readers I don’t want to ruin your mood, so I stop nagging and hope to see my dreams come true in the year 93: Studying in a world class university while my hand is held by a world class admirer…

Let’s wrap up with this beautiful lyric and let everything go:

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door

The snow blows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I’m the queen
The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in
Heaven knows I try

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always had to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go, let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all
Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe
I know left a life behind but I’m to relieved to grieve

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go, let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

Standing frozen in the life I’ve chosen
You won’t find me, the past is so behind me
Buried in the snow

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go, let it go,
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway